Did you ever wonder why all the see-sawing? Why all the mental battles? Why all the craziness? For me... I think it has a lot to do with sleep (as I write this at 12:30) and stress levels. But... mostly sleep. Lack of sleep, for me, leads to bad decisions (about food and otherwise), stress, and frustration... Overall, there isn't a single positive redeeming factor of staying up for the sake of staying up.
That said, I think I know why I do it (and, ok, I'm already backpedaling on the "no redeeming factor" statement). I think it is the only time in my life (between the hours of 11:30 and 1:00) that I get to myself. So... effectively, I sacrifice sleep for time in my own head. Good trade-off? Not always. But, I think it's important. Here's the point in my own post where I totally flip-flop my opinion.... Actually, despite the long list of negatives, I think I need it.
Where does that leave me? Eh... right where I was five minutes ago. But... just like the time I spend on the road running, 11:30-1 is the time that I pick to unwind. The only difference is... that time is truly "off the clock" (ironic huh?). I have no goals, no pressures, no anything. I think we all need a little more of that at times.
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I do know that if I am sleepy, I tend to make really bad decisions with food the next day.
Hope you find peace with all this.
I'm sure having the baby doesn't help with the sleep issues either. I know I put on about 10kgs after my kid was born.
Thanks guys... just sounding off. I'm cranky :)
You are in a rough patch mentally. Find a goal in the running/nutrition area and stick with it. You'll quickly feel better about things as you see yourself getting closer to the goal.
And, about a few posts ago, I agree there is no reason to log junk miles. Work on speed...for no reason other than fun. Play some Beat the Clock for awhile.
Sounds like you've got a lot on your plate & need some rest & relief. Time for a run, eh? ;-)
I know a lot of parents who run precisely for this very same reason. They need alone time. Or, perhaps they find another activity to do for alone time, & then they make running a family activity. Of course, with a newborn, you'd probably have to opt for the former. ;-)
Even as a parent, you still need that quiet time for yourself -- everyone does, really! -- so that you don't self-destruct! I bet your wife probably feels the same way....
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