Wednesday, November 5, 2008

On the Mend... Mentally

Did you ever wonder why all the see-sawing? Why all the mental battles? Why all the craziness? For me... I think it has a lot to do with sleep (as I write this at 12:30) and stress levels. But... mostly sleep. Lack of sleep, for me, leads to bad decisions (about food and otherwise), stress, and frustration... Overall, there isn't a single positive redeeming factor of staying up for the sake of staying up.

That said, I think I know why I do it (and, ok, I'm already backpedaling on the "no redeeming factor" statement). I think it is the only time in my life (between the hours of 11:30 and 1:00) that I get to myself. So... effectively, I sacrifice sleep for time in my own head. Good trade-off? Not always. But, I think it's important. Here's the point in my own post where I totally flip-flop my opinion.... Actually, despite the long list of negatives, I think I need it.

Where does that leave me? Eh... right where I was five minutes ago. But... just like the time I spend on the road running, 11:30-1 is the time that I pick to unwind. The only difference is... that time is truly "off the clock" (ironic huh?). I have no goals, no pressures, no anything. I think we all need a little more of that at times.


Anonymous said...

I do know that if I am sleepy, I tend to make really bad decisions with food the next day.

Hope you find peace with all this.

Andrew is getting fit said...

I'm sure having the baby doesn't help with the sleep issues either. I know I put on about 10kgs after my kid was born.

Eric Gervase said...

Thanks guys... just sounding off. I'm cranky :)

Nitmos said...

You are in a rough patch mentally. Find a goal in the running/nutrition area and stick with it. You'll quickly feel better about things as you see yourself getting closer to the goal.

And, about a few posts ago, I agree there is no reason to log junk miles. Work on speed...for no reason other than fun. Play some Beat the Clock for awhile.

cyberpenguin said...

Sounds like you've got a lot on your plate & need some rest & relief. Time for a run, eh? ;-)

I know a lot of parents who run precisely for this very same reason. They need alone time. Or, perhaps they find another activity to do for alone time, & then they make running a family activity. Of course, with a newborn, you'd probably have to opt for the former. ;-)

Even as a parent, you still need that quiet time for yourself -- everyone does, really! -- so that you don't self-destruct! I bet your wife probably feels the same way....