As I sit here watching the Biggest Loser finale, I realize that I have more potential that I'm not tapping into. I've definitely reached a point where I'm complacent and content. There are certain things about that statement that I'm ok with. I think I deserve a certain amount of complacency and contentment. I've lost almost 35 pounds. But, with that complacency comes a little self doubt.
Let me be clear... I don't think the weight is coming back. This running thing has definitely stuck. But, I could definitely lose another 15 pounds and would like to lose another 15 pounds. Not only that, even if I don't lose that 15 pounds, I could be a more fit/muscular 197 pounds.
So.... what does that mean? I'm really not sure right now. I think that it means that I'm a little disappointed with myself. I haven't been eating well... No, scratch that, I've been eating terribly. I eat well (probably too little) all day and then eat way too much when I get home from work. I think I know the answer (bring healthy snacks to work and eat more throughout the day). But, that's a lot of energy and money. Stupid excuses. But, I'm in my last month of finishing my MBA and am stressed and tired. It's just another thing to think about.
Maybe that means that I wait until after the half marathon and class is over and really focus. I know that I can do it. I just don't know that I have the energy to right now. Seems like a plan. I just can't allow "pushing it off until later" to be a recurring theme. Been there, done that. Don't want to do it again.
On a brighter note... I ran over lunch today. It was a pretty darn good tempo run. Here's the stats.
Run recap- 4.98 miles, 43:10, 8:41 pace